Tuesday, May 3, 2011

44 Days.

That's how many days its been since I met my daughter for the first time. As I think back on the past 44 days I'm leveled. A small girl has completely invaded every bit of my being. I guess that really happened with a small picture I saw on a waiting child list four and a half months ago. Holding her just makes it real, kissing her sweet face, and whispering in her ear that I'm her mommy and will always be sends me over the edge of emotion.

When Zahra grabs me, wraps her entire body around me squeezing so tight and kissing my cheeks saying "I luff you mommy" I melt. Its an incredible reminder that children belong in families. Children should not be waiting on lists, they should be in our homes, in little beds covered in good night kisses and bedtime prayers. Zahra knows she is loved and the way she shows it at this point in our relationship is by squeezing me with everything she has. Every single morning her daddy and I are greeted with huge hugs and the full body cuddle. She clings and doesn't let go until she's had enough or decides she wants oatmeal. (her single most favorite food on the planet) She is working on a secure attachment to us. We are facilitating that attachment. Daily reinforcing what that looks like.

When we met just 44 days ago we were strangers. Today we're not strangers but we're still figuring things out. Together. It may not look the same as someone else's process but it is beautiful to me.

13 comments:

Mandie M. said...

Beautiful to me too :)!

Mandie M. said...

Beautiful to me too :)!! <3 Mandie

Erika Reiner said...

Beautiful...simply beautiful.

God's got an amazing way of putting together His plan.

Alison said...

Love this!!! Ya'll are beautiful...inside and out! Love seeing God's plans for ya'll unfold!

Nikki said...

Your family is B.E.A.U.T.I.F.U.L! You are right, no child should be on a waiting list and every child has a right to have a family. My husband and I fell in love with a little girl on our agency's waiting list about 2 months ago from India. We are hoping to have her home sometime late this fall. It's families like yours that helps us to believe that this little girl is meant to be in our family. Thank you so much for sharing your story with us!

"Are These Kids All Yours?" said...

LOVE THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Janet said...

Amen to cuddles and goodnight kisses! This is a beautiful story to watch unfold... thank you for sharing.

B'sBabyFarm said...

<3!!!

Courtney said...

It's beautiful to me too!

Danielle said...

Great post! I know that adopting an older child is different from what we are doing, but I totally understand the over the top emotional feeling! Standing church holding out three youngest singing "How great thou art" I just stand and cry.
He is good all the time and He is creating a beautiful work in you too!

Meli_Mama said...

I LOVE the look of pure joy on both your faces. So sweet!

Meli_Mama said...

I LOVE the look of pure joy on both of your faces. So sweet!

Jodi said...

AWWW - love you! This post brings tears to my eyes!!!!